Side-Note

Jesus was alone too you know (like with just Him and the Father)? Well He really was. He told his disciples all of them would be scattered and leave him alone. What did they do? Just that, duh (after all this is Jesus we're talking about lol). Anyway, Jesus said this and it happened just like He had said. He was dying on their behalf-- yet they were rejecting Him. I can't liken myself to Christ in this area, I mean I've never laid down my life for someone else. You know what I mean? I have been feeling utterly alone though. I know I'm not but I don't really seem to have any friends around me, ever. I don't really seem to let people in. Why? Because letting people in means allowing myself to be vulnerable and being rejected. This is outward infliction. But I guess shutting people out is all in all a self infliction and therefore more bearable, but it's not really. Anyway back to Jesus and His disciples. Jesus literally gave peace to them because He loved them. In the same way, Jesus has given me a peace even right now in the midst of what I've been feeling is true-- even though I know it isn't because I have friends and family all around me that love and care about me deeply. Tonight, after reading the scripture I am including at the bottom of this post, I wrote some stuff. I wanna share it. Maybe someone out there is feeling like me... a little too alone in a little too big of a world!

You have seen my tears through the darkest night

You have held me close and whispered about thing's no one knows

You have dried all my tears when the battle inside of me has been too hard for me to handle on my own

You have given me a hope that no one could ever know unless they know you.

I have walked through the rain many nights, crying like the pouring rain around me

Yet in the midst of all of this,

You saw me! You saw me! Yes, You saw me!

You never once took your eyes off of me!

You saw me the night I cried myself to sleep as I prayed for You to make a way for me

You saw me the night I tried to die and how determined I was to walk away from this life

Yet you have way better plans than that for me so you made me stick it out with You through the pain I was in

Yes, You are still teaching me this life can be hard--

You never did deny that, did you?

No you didn't, not even once!

Surely enough though, You have stuck by me when I felt the world about to do me in

And when I was about to go under by the tow

You caught me, saved me and helped me...

You are the most amazing friend ever,

Thank you, Jesus!

“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. (John 14:27)

Jesus asked, “Do you finally believe? But the time is coming—indeed it’s here now—when you will be scattered, each one going his own way, leaving me alone. Yet I am not alone because the Father is with me. I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:31-33)

Pressing On To Be Found In Christ Jesus,

♥Brittany Michelle♥